Troubled Breaking Amish star Sabrina Burkholder announced last month that the cast of Return To Amish (minus Kate Stoltz) would be returning for another season. Since then, Sabrina has been sharing updates about her struggles to remain sober, her two children who were adopted by their dad’s sister, and just how involved show producers have been in helping her straighten out her life.
Followers of Sabrina’s Facebook page asked her this week if she still gets to see her two daughters, 4-year-old Oakley and one-and-a-half-year-old Arianna, and if the two of them would be included on the show.
“They are adopted now and as long as I stay clean and sober I’m allowed to see them,” Sabrina revealed. As far as whether or not the two girls will be featured on the upcoming season of Return To Amish, it doesn’t appear likely. “My daughter’s adoptive mother has asked that I keep my kids out of the spotlight,” Sabrina said, “and so I want to respect that and respect their privacy.”
Sabrina has wrestled with drug addiction for years, and recently got out of jail for the third time in less than a year. In the tope that this time around will be different, she is enlisting the help of TLC and the show producers from Hot Snakes Media:
And yes I’m doing good I just saw parole again yesterday. TLC is involved now too and I signed releases of information yesterday at parole allowing them (TLC) to know everything that’s going on with me. So if I would go get high and then pee dirty for parole, TLC would know immediately. I specifically asked parole to put it in the paperwork that TLC and Hot Snakes (the production company) be allowed to know everything. That way I am held accountable and have to do well, otherwise I will lose my job. I decided that I need that kind of structure in my life.
They needed to be able to talk to my po for work permits to travel and stuff plus they wanted to be able to check up on how I was doing etc anyway. And my po was like “I don’t have to tell them anything other than if you’re ok or if you’re in jail I don’t need to tell them if you’ve pissed dirty etc” and I was just like “well you might as well go ahead and tell them everything and whatever they wanna know bc that way I am more likely to keep my shit straight”.
I know it looks bad that I don’t really trust myself but I need this accountability so that I can trust myself again you know?
COMMENTER: You’re trying… that’s something a lot of people in your shoes don’t even try. Who cares how it looks… at the end of the day it’s for yourself and your kids and that’s all that matters.
Yeah my kids deserve way better than what I’ve given them. I want them to have someone to look up to. I don’t wanna be another junkie or another statistic that succumbed to addiction and died. Honestly if I died today I would not be satisfied with the life I’ve lived or the legacy I would leave behind, which is why I’m working on changing and becoming someone my daughters can hopefully be proud to call their mother someday.
But anyway that’s what’s been up with me lately. I try not to talk as much on here as I used to bc I feel like I can talk till I’m blue in the face but if my actions don’t change then all the talk was pointless anyway. I’d like to show people I’m serious this time instead of just talking about it.
COMMENTER: Sabrina…I think you are true and honest and taking responsibility and action, which is amazing considering your past life. Sadly my sister is in the position you were in back along way and its heart breaking to watch and not be able to do anything.. Any advice to get her away from bad people?
Honestly? Nothing worked for me I went to rehab multiple times tc and nothing worked until one day I woke up and decided I was sick of living that way. I had to want it for myself. Other people can want it for you but until you want it for yourself, nothing will change. One thing that helped me was learning about spirituality and doing yoga and meditation and focusing on the fact that I am a soul with a body, not a body with a soul. People focus so much on the physical side of things that they forget they are spiritual beings first and foremost. If you keep your spiritual health in check, your physical reality will change as well. You have to feed your soul the right things. Positive energy, tc. Every time a negative thought enters your mind, imagine you are an island and that that negative thought is a ship headed for the island. Send it back out to sea.
Despite announcing the return of Return To Amish last month, it appears that Sabrina still had one more hurdle to overcome before she could officially get in front of the cameras again. On Friday, a fan asked if Sabrina had started filming for the new season yet, and Sabrina responded the following day: “Nope. Just got officially cleared by parole tho so I’m good to go so everyone better watch out here I come ???”
We look forward to seeing Sabrina and the rest of the Return To Amish cast back on TLC later this year!