Kim Kardashian stars on all three covers of Elle U.K.‘s new Body Confidence issue, which is pretty ironic because Kim admitted she loses all confidence with any weight gain. Specifically, Kim said she was devastated to gain weight during her pregnancy — until she decided it was God’s punishment for her vanity.
“I’d think God was doing this for a reason. He was saying: ‘Kim, you think you’re so hot, but look what I can do to you,'” Kim said of her experience when expecting North West.
She explained her body went so “crazy” she vowed to never get pregnant again. She added, “I got so huge and it felt like someone had taken over my body. I’d be sitting there, nearly 200lbs, crying and swearing this will never happen again, and sometimes I’d actually be laughing about it.”
In the edition — which Elle has dubbed “The Kim Confidence Issue” — Kim also said it was hard growing up in a time when the waif figure was so desirable.
“It’s taken me a long time to be happy with my body and for my confidence to grow to what it is today,” she said. “I grew up when the body to have was the tall, slim, supermodel one, like Cindy Crawford’s. No one looked like me. It’s good to break the mould and recreate one.”
During one moment of insecurity, Kim said she was encouraged by her late dad, Robert Kardashian: “When I was 13 my father wrote me a letter. I was unhappy with my body – I developed really early. Every night I would sit in the bath and cry, I prayed my boobs would stop growing. He told me I had a body not many girls have, that later it would lead to attention from men, but that the most important thing was that I was a wonderful girl and I had to understand my self worth.”
That prediction, of course, came true. Kim said, “I’m an Armenian girl, I have shape, and it turned out people liked that. That makes me feel good about myself and about other women for being so supportive. I am a confident woman, but I didn’t just arrive confident – it has built over the years and that is a big part of who I am now.”
