Former Teen Mom OG star Farrah Abraham commemorated a very emotional anniversary this week. She and daughter Sophia traveled to Council Bluffs, Iowa on the tenth anniversary of the death of Sophia’s dad, Derek Underwood, who died in a car crash on December 28, 2008.
“These last couple of days have been some of the best days in my life,” Farrah began a post on Facebook that accompanied a lengthy video. “Today is the 10th Anniversary of Sophia’s Father, Derek Underwood, the love of my life’s car accident 12/28/2008 that changed my life forever,” Farrah continued. She then expressed how grateful she is that Sophia got to spend the night with Derek’s dad and his wife.
Farrah revealed that she also felt lucky to be there because she had survived having suicidal thoughts. “I can’t believe I even lived to see this day as I never thought I would get through the sadness, suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety and hardships of loosing [sic] someone I loved this much who I thought I would be with today,” she wrote. “Today marks a new decade with the family and loved ones who held through this decade and now were filled with love, gratefulness, and confidence that we are blessed with the best angel of Derek watching over us.”
Farrah concluded her post with more optimism. “This new decade, new year will be one of our best and I’m so thankful and feeling so happy. Thank you Derek for watching over us all & showing me to live my best life with our daughter like it could be our last ❤️ so much love.”
In the video, Farrah sat with Sophia as well as Derek’s dad and his wife as they all watched Farrah’s episode of 16 & Pregnant, looked through Sophia’s scrapbook of Derek, and shared stories about Derek — including Derek revealing that Farrah was pregnant as well as the 3 AM phone call from Derek’s mom Stormie Clark telling them Derek had died.
Here’s the full video, followed by another clip Farrah shared on YouTube:
These last couple of days have been some of the best days in my life , today is the 10th Anniversary of Sophia’s Father, Derek Underwood, the love of my life’s car accident 12/28/2008 that changed my life forever. Seeing Sophia spend the night at her dads parents house on the 10th anniversary fills me with joy. I can't believe I even lived to see this day as I never thought I would get through the sadness, suicidal thoughts , depression, anxiety and hardships of loosing someone I loved this much who I thought I would be with today, today marks a new decade with the family and loved ones who held through this decade and now were filled with love, gratefulness, and confidence that we are blessed with the best angel of Derek watching over us,this new decade, new year will be one of our best and I'm so thankful and feeling so happy
Thank you Derek for watching over us all & showing me to live my best life with our daughter like
It could be our last ❤️ so much love
Posted by Farrah Abraham on Friday, December 28, 2018
In addition to the videos, Farrah also shared a number of photos on Instagram — including a terrifying photo of the car that Derek was driving after it flipped and hit a telephone pole:
There were also prom photos of the couple, a letter that Derek wrote to Farrah, and a gallery of images and video clips of the family at Derek’s grave:
Despite the get-together with Derek’s dad’s side of the family, it seems ten years has not been enough to mend the rift between Farrah and Stormie Clark. Stormie came up a few times during the Facebook video above, but Farrah was always quick to change the subject.
For those of you unable to watch YouTube videos, I will end this post with a full transcript of what Farrah had to say in that video:
I wanted to share so much love because I have had one of the best days I’ve had in a long time when it came to dealing with Sophia’s father passing away in his car accident ten years ago today. And I was so blessed to be visiting Sophia’s grandfather — Derek’s dad — and on a day of just so many emotions over the years of loss, anxiety, depression, suicide and around the holidays around Christmas.
I just wanted to say I am so grateful, literally, just like so happy, it’s gonna make me cry — and excuse my lipstick because Sophia was giving us makeovers tonight. I’m so grateful that my daughter gets to have a sleepover with her grandparents (I’m gonna like cry). Sophia just deserves the world (I’m like crying today.) I’m so happy as a mom that I could give that to her.
And over the years it seemed like, am I gonna live through it? it was so hard and I think it would be hard for any mom, for any dad who lost his son, um, stepmom, mom, and — Whew! Sorry guys I’m crying because I’m so happy and I’m so thankful and I’m so grateful. And today was just a decade — marking a decade of me being so sad about something, but now realizing how blessed, how grateful I am. And it’s gonna be a new decade of just being thankful and blessed with so many great memories and so many great people to open up a new decade. I’m just like swelling up from crying.
And I just wanted to share my love and support and I know over the years on Facebook and everywhere, just a lot of people who struggled with suicidal thoughts, and depression, and loss — and I can finally say living after losing someone at a 10-year mark living my life as best as I can, keeping my family first, my daughter, you know, just in the know so she knows everything.
My life’s actually pretty beautiful and I’m super thankful that today — the only time I’m crying is like right now — sharing my feelings. It was so beautiful going to the grave today, even if it’s cold. We just had fun getting bright colors and beautiful flowers and decorating his gravestone. Derek deserves all the love, all the respect, and his memory to live on in such a nice and beautiful, respected way because he was really such a beautiful person to me. And Sophia has the best of her dad, the best of me, and the best of her family with her, so I can die a happy mom.
So cheers to making it through ten years after losing someone. And I love — I love you all for being such supporters of mine through all the negativity over the years. Even with 16 and pregnant and Teen Mom, I’m blessed. I’m happy for making all the right choices for my family, even being off TV and through TV, because after TV you have to live with consequences and you have to make the right choices. You don’t get a redo of one day. So I only plan on living my life and being around people who really support, love me, lift me up in my family. And if something’s not about that, then it was never meant to be in my life or need to be around it.
So all the best in 2019! I love you guys. Have a great night.