Infamous Dancerettes coach John Conner from the Lifetime series Bring It! revealed yesterday that he attempted suicide late last week “by taking over 2 bottles of pills.” John, who was later placed in a mental institution on suicide watch, also revealed that he is HIV positive in the lengthy and confessional post.
Coach John, who previously coached the Dynamic Diamond Dollz, said that the reason he wanted to take his own life was “because of a situation that happened over a year in a half ago that was recently brought up, but wasn’t told correctly.” He later stated that there were people trying to “destroy” him “all to try and TAKE OVER MY DANCE TEAM.”
John says he has been diagnosed with depression in addition to being HIV positive. “This is a hard pill to swallow,” John said of his HIV positive status, “but at the end of the day it’s something I have to deal with.”
Coach John also assures everyone that he will still be doing what he loves as far as coaching. “This doesn’t stop my ability to teach dance and help others,” he says.
It appears as though Coach John is in a much better place than he was last week when he tried to take his own life, and I’m sure I’m not alone in hoping that was his rock bottom and the only way is up from here!
Below is Coach John’s post in its entirety with a few paragraph breaks added in:
ATTN I HAVE ALOT TO SAY!
I know a lot of people wondered why I haven’t been on Facebook. Not everyday do people get second chances. I’m not perfect nor have I ever presented myself to be. All I ever wanted was to fit in and make something of myself. I can’t believe I’m doing this, but I’m doing it for me; not for likes, sympathy, etc.
3 days ago I attempted suicide by taking over 2 bottles of pills because of a situation that happened over a year in a half ago that was recently brought up, but wasn’t told correctly. When the ambulance arrived I was out of it. I had a long conversation with God apologizing and begging for forgiveness of the decision on taking my own life. I remember them telling me that they had my assistant meeting my mom to tell her that I was dead. I wasn’t moving and unresponsive. They had me on suicide watch and had to give me a lot of fluids to get me back and my kidneys where completely dry. God takes us through things for a reason and test our faith to see who’s really a true believer. I was discharged from the hospital and sent to a mental institute and placed on suicide watch along with taking medication for depression.
See I’m no longer hiding and being afraid to be who I am. This doesn’t stop my ability to teach dance and help others. God blessed me to be a good person despite my attitude sometimes. I know things about others that I don’t bother to broadcast because I’m not a cold hearted individual. I’m a firm believer that people root for you in public, but secretly pray for your down fall. When I say I genuinely care for people I mean just that.
God knows this has been a trying year for me, but since I’ve been here and talking to counselors, it’s giving me time to think and really pray. God told me son everything will be gone despite how people try to hurt me I’m still standing. Never in a million years would I ever feel people (that are close to me) would do anything to destroy me. For some that have known me forever to not know the difference in something that’s not all the way true is crazy; all to try and TAKE OVER MY DANCE TEAM…….didn’t know it was really that serious.
I’ve learned to accept things for what they are and for the ones that talk about me as if their lives are perfect or they don’t have any thing going on I thank you! I don’t need validation for something like this at all, but I’m tired of “friends” trying to hurt me.
I just found out I suffer from depression of not being able to cope the fact that I was giving HIV. YES I SAID IM HIV+, but I thank God for protecting me and KEEPING ME UNDETECTABLE!!!! This is a hard pill to swallow, but at the end of the day it’s something I have to deal with.
I put all my trust, love, and faithfulness finally into someone I loved and look what happened. I could’ve believe I got to a point to end my own life, but I felt the world was against me. Hard to date because people date you for the wrong reasons and you later find out out they become obsessed and delusional to do whatever it takes to have you and if they can’t they will do whatever to destroy you.
I believe in the power of prayer now more than ever. I love my life too much to take it. I genuinely wish everyone the best and may God continue to bless you. “Never throw s rock and hide your hand because you never know how it could affect the next person.” As you see Coach John, Lil John, and Jay John isn’t perfect at all; we all fall short. I thank God for all these test; this too shall pass!!!!
P.S. Stay away from the extra sites if you know what I mean