Even though she is arguably at the top of her game right now, 27-year-old Lana Del Rey said she would prefer to be “dead already.”
Speaking with The Guardian, the “Born to Die” singer said she’s inspired by Kurt Cobain and Amy Winehouse. Interviewer Tim Jonze noted both of her idols are in the 27 Club — the group of musicians who died at 27. Tim asked whether Lana believes early deaths are glamorous.
“I don’t know. Ummmm, yeah. I wish I was dead already,” said Lana, who turns 28 later this month.
Tim said he instinctively told her not to say that — but Lana stood her ground.
“I do,” she said of wanting death. “I don’t want to have to keep doing this. But I am… That’s just how I feel. If it wasn’t that way, then I wouldn’t say it. I would be scared if I knew [death] was coming, but…”
She added she feels driven to the edge by critics, backlash to some of her work and pop stardom in general. She said she often feels like she is living in “a really f**ked-up movie.”
“I don’t know what I think,” she said of finding enjoyment in her career. “All I know is that, right now, I like sitting here, on this terrace.”
The in-depth interview was part of Lana’s promotion tour for her upcoming album, Ultraviolence, which includes tracks “Cruel World” and “Sad Girl.” In a separate interview with The New York Times, Lana again spoke about her morbid fascination with “exploring ways to die.”
“I love the idea that it’ll all be over. It’s just a relief, really. I’m scared to die, but I want to die.”