Lamar Odom is ready to step back into the public eye again. The 37-year-old former NBA champion granted his first major interview in months, and the Us Weekly article is full of eye-opening, sometimes shocking revelations and confessions about Lamar’s drug use and his time with ex-wife Khloe Kardashian.
For starters, Lamar confirms that he suffered a total of twelve strokes and one heart attack during his near-fatal overdose at Nevada’s Bunny Ranch brothel. It was cocaine abuse (and not oft-rumored crack) that had his marriage to Khloe in a shambles, though Lamar acknowledged his luck–he calls himself a “walking miracle”–and says he completed treatment in a rehab facility this past January.
For another, Lamar admits that his cocaine use became so frequent that when Khloe finally caught him snorting “in the man cave she had made for [him],” Lamar didn’t know “if [he] was disappointed because [he] was actually doing the drug or” because Khloe had found out. But Lamar didn’t bottom out until after he and Khloe had separated: by December of 2013, he’d moved into an apartment with now-deceased friend Jamie Sangouthai, and was doing so much cocaine that “the only time [he could] f*ck” was when he was high.
Lamar Odom and Khloe Kardashian in 2010
But Lamar doesn’t regret any of his time with Khloe. Or, more specifically, he doesn’t regret putting his marriage on television, since doing so “opened up opportunities” for new business. One downside was the apparently huge number of “b!tches and THOTS” who “came out of the woodwork” because of his newfound visibility. “If there is one thing I regret when I was married, it was having multiple affairs with different women,” Lamar confessed. “When I became Khloé Kardashian’s man and on TV, it made me look more enticing. People who didn’t even know basketball would approach me….That wasn’t the stand-up thing to do. I wish I could have kept my d!ck in my pants.”
As for wake-up calls, Lamar says his eighteen-year-old daughter Destiny is responsible for getting him clean. It was Destiny’s ultimatum that pushed Lamar into rehab, and it sounds like thoughts of his two kids’ future is what motivates him now:
My daughter gave me the ultimatum to go. She said, “Pops, you get help or I won’t talk to you.” I think she saw it in my behavior. Coke is a real psychological drug. You can be getting high and feeling great and then on the way down cursing yourself out. So I think it was one of those moments on the way down. This last time I checked into rehab, I was able to stay the whole 30 days and get the most out of it. I learned about addiction and that it’s a brain disease. The choices we make when our brain is diseased are involuntary. So it was important and life-changing. My kids were really scared that their dad wasn’t going to be here. It was good bonding time with them when they came to see me. They said, “Dad, we want you to be here.” I was honest with them. There is no reason to lie now. But it was good for them to know it is a disease and one I may pass back to them.
Click here to read Us Weekly’s Lamar Odom interview in full.
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