Carrie Underwood, the 2005 American Idol winner (back when winning American Idol really meant something) and current chart topper, posed for Marie Claire‘s June issue in a lovely Burberry Prorsum swimsuit and gave them a candid interview.
Carrie is open about her personality piccadillos, like not being a “mushy” person.
“I’m not a mushy person at all. We were never a huggy family. Or a ‘let’s talk it out’ family. Technically, I have siblings, but they are quite a bit older than me. I was the accident, so I have the only-child syndrome going on. I’m a little more selfish, a little more independent, a little closed. I do wish I were softer. I wish I were able to form relationships better. But hey, I mean, I’m not a sociopath.”
When Carrie first became famous, she felt overwhelmed by everything.
“At the beginning of my career, I used to have panic attacks. People were touching me, screaming – it made me really nervous. In public, I just get nervous. It’s a physical reaction, feeling like the walls are closing in. The fans are great. It’s not their fault. I don’t ever want to come across as ungrateful. But on my end, it is hard for me to process because I am still just me.”
The 30-year-old, who married hockey player Mike Fisher in 2010, says she still doesn’t feel old enough to be a mom yet. “I don’t feel old enough to have kids,” Carrie says. “I know I am mature. But being responsible for another human?”
