Carrie Underwood shows off bikini body, says fans gave her panic attacks
Carrie Underwood, the 2005 American Idol winner (back when winning American Idol really meant something) and current chart topper, posed for Marie Claire‘s June issue in a lovely Burberry Prorsum swimsuit and gave them a candid interview.
Carrie is open about her personality piccadillos, like not being a “mushy” person.
“I’m not a mushy person at all. We were never a huggy family. Or a ‘let’s talk it out’ family. Technically, I have siblings, but they are quite a bit older than me. I was the accident, so I have the only-child syndrome going on. I’m a little more selfish, a little more independent, a little closed. I do wish I were softer. I wish I were able to form relationships better. But hey, I mean, I’m not a sociopath.”
When Carrie first became famous, she felt overwhelmed by everything.
“At the beginning of my career, I used to have panic attacks. People were touching me, screaming – it made me really nervous. In public, I just get nervous. It’s a physical reaction, feeling like the walls are closing in. The fans are great. It’s not their fault. I don’t ever want to come across as ungrateful. But on my end, it is hard for me to process because I am still just me.”
The 30-year-old, who married hockey player Mike Fisher in 2010, says she still doesn’t feel old enough to be a mom yet. “I don’t feel old enough to have kids,” Carrie says. “I know I am mature. But being responsible for another human?”
