Demi Lovato, who has publicly shared her struggles with drug addiction, self-harming, and bi-polar disorder before, spoke out again candidly with UK magazine Fabulous about the how the pitfalls of young celebrity fed her addictions.
“Promoters gave me drugs and alcohol in restaurants or clubs. They wanted me to come back so I would be seen there. They were basically kissing my ass.
“I thought they were my friends. I thought I was having fun. Being a celebrity can be dangerous. Nobody says ‘no’. That’s why so many end up overdosing and dying. It could definitely have happened to me.
“What I can say is that I was depressed. I would come off stage in front of 18,000 people and suddenly be alone in a hotel room. I’d come crashing down and would try to find a way to recreate that feeling, to stay ‘up’.”
Most young people dabble in some sort of drugs (alcohol included) nonsense, but I can imagine it could be so much easier to get addicted if whenever you went out to the club, club promoters were blowing smoke up your ass and giving you an endless supply of drugs and top shelf alcohol. That doesn’t excuse anything, of course, but it makes it a lot easier to make bad decisions.
Demi also spoke about her bulimia, which she’s had since she was 12 years old, and her self harming.
“It started with my wrists. People saw that, so I cut in places they couldn’t see.
“You do it because you feel so bad inside. You don’t know how to take it out other than on yourself.”
Demi, as always, spreads the message that she isn’t “fixed,” and the truth is that everyone struggles with something in their lives, but no one ever really gets “fixed,” but you can get better. In fact, being in denial about conquering your demons could potentially make them come back full force, because you have to keep up this front you’re putting on for other people.
“I’m not saying I’m perfect, or fixed, but I am learning to love and accept myself. My outlook is more positive and I am happy.”